Sunday, August 05, 2007

Ball o' Nerves

I'm starting to feel sick. I have a nasty habit of freaking myself out.

I am DESPERATELY trying to get the hayle up out of the job I am working. I have come to the conclusion that it is truly damaging my spirit. According to one of my daughter's journals (what? she left it out...I think she meant for me to read it) working there is ruining our relationship, too. I am frustrated and disgusted and just overall unhappy because I feel stuck. which really is rewarding. But recently things have gotten crazy and it's starting to take a toll. Due to confidentiality, I won't go into detail about the incident that proved to be the straw that broke the camel's back...plus I'm still so disgusted that I don't want to repeat it.

So I applied, for the second year in a row, to teach for the public school system. Here it is August and I noticed that all the listings for Art teacher have been removed from the site and I've had no interview. I'm frustrated and I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm trying to think about what else I can do...as far as I know, there aren't very many options in my area, especially from a creative standpoint. I feel defeated...

Thursday I got a call to have an interview with the Fine Arts department for Hampton City Schools. HALLELUJAH! Talk about the 11th hour! I was so exited...until I was told to bring in a portfolio. HUH? Oh Snap! I don't have one...at least not one that I think will land me the job. I'm thinking they want to see my Fine Arts type stuff...I haven't done fine arts stuff since college (I graduated in '01)...the only thing I've drawn or painted is this:

And this...



All I've been doing is sewing. So I'm sooo worried. All I can do is take new pictures of the things I have, present the HELL out them, and hope that they can see that I'm a capable artist and that I am hella passionate about art and creativity. Shoot. I dunno...

1 comment:

Cathy said...

good luck with your interview :)
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